is it dark or is it just me

sometimes the sun is so loud and mean it aches my eyes. rays seep through my eyelids and drip through cracks of my skull. it sticks.

every jolt i force out is only knit into soft whispers and shivers from nothing. it chants. drown a little more–get lost a little more–something building up in my throat. 

it’s kind of as if im wandering in the dark.