Charles Grey, the Second Earl Grey
by Keshav Kannan | Art by Annie Yao
I plunge, indolent, into this space,
Inhaling this world so soft, so gentille—
So brazenly secret.
It is not my own,
Although it is the only one I have known.
Nursed by a soft breast tainted,
Tainted by empire!,
They gambol amongst blossoms,
Setting fire to the ideals
Of the gods they exalt.
(A life of tea-times punctuated by mundane masks of night, of day.)
(With a drunken indifference),
Knives into the hands
—Yes, these sanguine hands so wizened, so fragile,
Engulfed in the leaden, viscous swamp of history!—
Which tenderly nourish their souls.
Alas! their souls have neither hunger nor thirst,—
But for the romantic fragrance pervading French villas
Lying inutile, dormant,
On Laotian riverbanks.
(They float towards whose kingdom, these tea-stained feet?)
Ah, this scent:
It is the aroma of a juvenescence
Sullied by tranquility;
It is the aroma floating through windows opened to the balmy world,
Tempting me, my siblings;
It is the aroma of intoxicated men, trifling,
Planting in their barren gardens the ancient trees of another.
O tongue so accustomed to the clement wonders of saffron,
Which sings without pretension
Of foregone peoples, of a persistent, antediluvian greed!—
O tongue, that you may elicit from beneath the two lions’ lush facade
So luxurious, so intricately superfluous,
From the depths of the
Of the rooster of Gaul,
The earthy, plain
—Yet impossibly opulent—
Silks of a lost race.
The feverish fervor of the previous night
Has subsided, leaving
Calm, rippling, jaundiced waves of envy.
I lapse into delirium.
Sitting arrogantly before me,
Are lost in reveries of their own.
Stolen from their ancestral hearths,
Their astringency now evokes but
Fabulous (insipid) tales of
—Our heroic, sly, blond forebears
Striding about in exotic, wintry Darjeeling and Fujian.
Amidst the unassuming piquancy of this miniscule river so vast,
One finds the pith
Overcome with ennui, lassitude,
Swamped and eroded by those who purport to be our ancestors.
Aphorisms for the daughter half-prodigal (so weary)
Your mirror was gilded by the very god
in whose language we all dream.
Crane gliding on the silky river surface:
dim the brume of your soft gaze.
I have come to love your creased hands,
enclosing luminous sins therein.
Your abode is your native land,—return
that you may shun its high gates.