I was going to write a story
I was going to write a story. I swear! I started it and everything, even found character names! and
everyone knows how hard it is to find the perfect name for the perfect character. I don’t really know
what happened, I just couldn’t finish it. My words were messy, inadequate, failures. So instead, you’re
gonna have this compilation of excuses. Or maybe i should tell you how much i started writing, and
all the effort i put into it. Or maybe i should do both, give you the process along side all the reasons i
never finished. Well for starters, it was wednesday. Last wednesday? It was a vertigo meeting.
“Worktime for your april fool’s piece!”they told us. I dont know how much work we relly got done,
but i did do something!that was when i found the names. I knew from the start i wanted to do an
enemies to lover story, maybe not the slowburn 200k + words part, but definitely the angst with a
fluffy ending part. SO i looked for names. Zyla was an obvious one. I mean the name’s almost on par
with Nobara kugisaki or Maki zenin for coolness, so that was one down. But now i needed her mortal
enemy who she also couldnt live without. I started with catherine, thinking it was adequate. Kind of
sounded like the name of an english queen, but it was alos so NORMAL! Then i decided on Ximena.
Didn’t know how to pronounce it, i mean well not really my mental pronounciation is always wack,
but it looked cool on paper. That wasn’t all i did during the meeting, but probably the only
productive thing i did. I might have watched a wang yibo compilation video which i wont link
because i think i might have watched seven instead of just one. Later, like two hours or maybe just
the end of the day later, I remembered the piece I started for spring issue all the way back in january.
“Magic Lesbians”the doc was titled, a promising start if i may say so myself. But then i just couldn’t
finish. I had teh story all out in my head, the backstory in actual words on the document but then
words failed me and english left me and whatever grasp i had of literature flew out the window. So
here I am, less than three hours before the deadline writing this sorry excuse of an apology, if you
could even call it that. Maybe in a couple years from now, when im hopefully older and realize that
2d characters are not adequate crushes and have grasped teh english language and have some
semblance of order to my life I may finish the story and share. But for now, this is all anyone will ever
get. I think I should say sorry at least once, but i wouldn’t really mean it. Those compilation videos
were justtoo good to pass up. So sorry, but not sorry.