I am
Marilyn Zhang | Art by Jennifer Xu
I am.
I am a star in the sky,
the one that glitters even when the night is darker
than Sylvia Plath’s bell jar.
I shine by myself, alone at doomsday,
igniting the night, photon by photon, until suddenly,
I find myself glimmering in a crowd, overtaken
by other people’s shadows–
longer, wearier, and darker than my own–
but ultimately
illuminating the entire universe.
I am a waft of clouds
that joins a million others,
in floating up towards the sky,
past the things that sink,
rising above the
complicated statistics and multisyllable words
that twist from iron-clad chains.
I follow the wind,
to where it may take me,
and make my own–
every breath, every gulp, every scream
is a little chisel, sculpting my own sky.
I am Point B
for my younger sister’s Point A.
the firm, big hands,
that know how to stretch across the sky
for a pair of morning-grass-fresh young ones,
purer than morning dew.
the eyes that, like stars,
have seen a fair share of the darker corners of the world,
for the bright young ones,
that have but just opened to let the warm sun in.
the voice, gentle but firm,
like the voice of the wind in the sky
for the times when her own will quiver and drop.
I am but a whisper
on the face of this world,
one that will melt
with the volcanoes that rise and fall
with each heartbeat of this Earth.
I am but a whisper
in the air hanging above this world,
one that will mix and mend
with the double-edged swords and cherry-blossom hearts
of the words of the ancestors buried below us.
Soon, soon, I will disappear.
But I am also the loudest whisper.